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The words have left my mouth to one single person.
There's no turning back.

This camera makes me so happy.

I haven't written in a long time...
I've been staying busy.
I love my job.
I like my schedule, but I wish I didn't wake up so early.
I miss the scene kids minus one person.
The amount of people at Grace King annoys the hell out of me.
I want a LOCKER.
I don't know where we're going...

Sorry, you have THE strongest deodorant they make.
And I still can't control this.

You call, I come, I drive, we talk, we joke, you flirt.
Edward was so worried, I could tell.
You were so awkward.

The Used is coming!!!!
I can't belieeeeeve this. I used to be so in love with them in 7th and 8th grade.

I don't even want to fucking write about last night.
Shit's fucking crazy.

I need to stop cursing.
Two very young couples that I LOVE have gotten engaged within like 2 weeks of each other.
<33333333333

I haven't written in so long...
I start my job tomorrow at 9 am.
I'm over the "working with HIM" thing, we're friends.
Spending more and more time with Maddie and Katie.
Cool with pretty much everyone.
Drove to the Westbank for the first time.
Got in a car accident in a parking lot.
Haven't started summer reading or Newspaper stuff.
Can't wait to go go go.
Lots of alcohol lately.
Peer pressure to smoke.

I love life.

Time spent with Edward is just never time enough.
I love Megan and Conner. They're really fun.
I don't have much to say.
Livejournal is such a crutch when you're hurting, but when you're SO happy, you can tell ANYONE.

Dodging Catherine plays Warped tomorrow...GOOD LUCK BOYS<33333

I saw the kid I took my driving test with today.
Raced him on W. Esplanade, it was funny.
Lost a best friend, got a job at Cane's.
My greatest enemy and I are friends. Now co-workers.
I had SO much fun last night. Katie and Maddie are my ride or DIE.
Did I mention how IN LOVE I am? Oh my GOD I love teenage love.
Kings of Leon make feeling great 100 times better.

P.S. Saw you again. Didn't feel you again. Didn't need you again. Smelled you again-but in a bad way. Saw your girlfriend(?) at the mall right before I saw you.

Maybe being civil is what I needed to get over you 100%...but you sure did look cute...

God, I'm so in love.

I'm ready for this. My hands are shaky and my brain is numb but I'm so ready.

You hugged me and I don't know what was wrong with me-in a good way- but I didn't feel a thing.
I don't remember hugging you, I was paying attention to Megan.
I didn't smell you, feel you, it's like it never even happened.
And I'm so fucking glad.

Saw Rachel and Co, Jacob and Bran Bran, Sam and Megan.
It was a good night I guess.
I was more happy about those people than the bands for once.


License at 8 am.
What I've wanted for SO long...thank you God.

I've been home for an hour and in an hour I've broken down twice.

This is lovely.

I've been feeling really sick lately. Except for when I eat?
Like right now...I want to throw up, weird stomach pains.
It started on Wednesday I think when I was eating a PB&J sammich and I literally almost puked.
Plus the fact that I've been getting like 4 headaches a week, when I didn't get my first headache EVER until a few months ago.
And I can sleep forEVER and it's not enough.
I really need to go to the doctor.

To be honest, I don't know how I'm going to do next week.
I'm going to miss Edward SO much.
A week? I can't even imagine being Katie or Ryan.
I'm going around 11 days without seeing him, depending on his schedule at work.
All I have is a mini-teddy bear named Taco and every song we've sang together in my head.
I missed him the second I got out of his truck last night.

This year I'll be a junior. To you, I may be young, but I miss being youngER. I look at old pictures of me and my friends. Or even at other people's old pictures. What happens? Why do peoples' friendships fade away? Why do those times fade? All that's left after next year are pictures. We all look so young, so stupid. The music that shaped me into the person I am is the same music I listen to now, the people are the same people. So what happens? Well, I found the High Ground. I met awesome people. I met stupid people. Stupid boys. I met Edward<3. I pierced my lip, I dyed my hair, and in 15 days I'll have my license. I can drive where ever, whenever. As much as I want to grow up and go to college, move out, forget about high school, I want to go back...Now, I need a job to pay for gas and things, keep up my 3.8 GPA to keep TOPS and get other scholarships, plan for college, where am I going, where will I live among other things. Sure it's two years away, but it came so quick. I miss those times spent at Clearview doing absolutely nothing, sixth grade with Maddie, Max, and Katie B., seventh grade getting close to Katie and Maddie more and more, my first boyfriend and first kiss, eighth grade with Maddie and Heather, I didn't give a shit what you thought and I was confident. Then I got to King and got a reality check. The people I've been in classes with FOREVER are killing me. I hate 90% of them now. I'm pushed more and more, which makes me want to quit more and more. I deserved that spot on the top, and I was robbed, making me want to quit something else that used to mean SO much to me. I want to get out of school and move on with my life or go back to when times were simple and drama was pointless. Luckily, I have my girls. Katie, Maddie, Natalie, Jessica. And my guys. Edward, Joshy, Sam, Brandon. Now, you see, even though I'm definitely not as close as I used to be with Sam and Brandon, I don't blame it on them, it's my fault too. But nonetheless, I love them as if they were my brothers and I know if anything happened, I could talk to them.

Wow.

I'm so ready to FUCK what adults think and finally do something a 16 year old would do.
As in piercing my lip.
I've always been mature and I've always thought ahead.
What if I don't?
What if I lie and sneak and drink and party and sleep wherever.
Even for one night?
Just to say I have.
If I don't like it, I won't do it anymore.

I need to stop procrastinating.
1. Get a job.
2. Exercise.
3. Tan.
4. "Fuck you"
5. Do what I want.

Forget it, I'm going to college for free and I can't fuck up once I'm there.
I get so many chances during high school.
I'm doing what I want when I want to.
Well, I'll push myself. I can't promise anything crazy. I know I get freaked out easy.

The Hangover 2 (2011)

I think I just cried?

Have you ever tried to break someone up?
no, just wished for it

Are you currently frustrated with anyone or anything?
yeah

Have you ever been called Prince/​Princess?​
don't think so

When was the last time you slept at someone else's house?
thursday

When was the last time you went shopping?
yesterday

How many texts are currently in your inbox?
34

What's bothering you right now?
i need to change and clean my rabbits cage

Besides this, what are you doing right now?
nothing

Do you plan on moving out within the next year or two?
2 i guess

Do you get nervous before going to doctor appointments?
not really

In one word, how do you feel right now?
bored

Whose voice do you currently hear?
no ones

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with

What do you normally do when you've had a really bad day?
listen to music, sleep

If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
sometimes

Do you wish you never dated someone you dated?
nah, i learned a LOT

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
very

Was this New Year's enjoyable?
yeah


Can you easily tell if someone's fake?
yeah

Who made you mad today?
no one

Do you always answer your phone?
no

Have you spoken to your Mother today?
yeah

Is your cell phone fully charged?
yeah

Small or big dogs?
idk

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
no

What color is your hair?
brown

You are upset. WHO is the FIRST person you call to vent to?
no one

WHO is the Last Person you hung out with?
edward

How did you meet this person?
megan something

Have you ever fallen asleep upsidedown?
wtf, no

Who is the best person to cheer you up?
edward, katie, jessica, brandon

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
i hope?

Currently thinking about?
angels and airwaves